The Ghost(英文版)-第52章

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r　accident　in　New　York　City；　along　with　his　driver。　It　was　the　fourth　headline；　I’m　afraid。　There’s　nothing　more　ex　than　an　ex…politician。　Rycart　would　not　have　been　pleased。

　　I　knew　after　that　there　was　no　going　back。

　　Although　I’ve　done　nothing　but　write　and　think　about　what　happened；　I　still　can’t　tell　you　precisely　how　McAra　uncovered　the　truth。　I　presume　it　must　have　started　back　in　the　archives；　when　he　came　across　Operation　Tempest。　He　was　already　disillusioned　with　Lang’s　years　in　power；　unable　to　understand　why　something　that　had　started　with　such　high　promise　had　ended　in　such　a　bloody　mess。　When；　in　his　dogged　way；　researching　the　Cambridge　years；　he　stumbled　on　those　photographs；　it　must　have　seemed　like　the　key　to　the　mystery。　Certainly；　if　Rycart　had　heard　rumors　of　Emmett’s　CIA　links；　it’s　reasonable　to　assume　that　McAra　must　have　done　so；　too。

　　But　McAra　knew　other　things　as　well。　He　would　have　known　that　Ruth　was　a　Fulbright　scholar　at　Harvard；　and　it　wouldn’t　have　taken　him　more　than　ten　minutes　on　the　internet　to　discover　that　Emmett　was　teaching　her　specialist　subject　on　the　campus　in　the　midseventies。　He　also　knew　better　than　anyone　that　Lang　rarely　made　a　decision　without　consulting　his　wife。　Adam　was　the　brilliant　political　salesman；　Ruth　the　strategist。　If　you　had　to　pick　which　of　them　would　have　had　the　brains；　the　nerve；　and　the　ruthlessness　to　be　an　ideological　recruit；　there　could　only　be　one　choice。　McAra　can’t　have　known　for　sure；　but　I　believe　he’d　put　together　enough　of　the　picture　to　blurt　out　his　suspicions　to　Lang　during　that　heated　argument　on　the　night　before　he　went　off　to　confront　Emmett。

　　I　try　to　imagine　what　Lang　must　have　felt　when　he　heard　the　accusation。　Dismissive；　I’m　sure；　furious　also。　But　a　day　or　two　afterward；　when　a　body　was　washed　up；　and　he　went　to　the　morgue　to　identify　McAra—what　did　he　think　then？

　　Most　days　I　have　listened　to　the　tape　of　my　final　conversation　with　Lang。　The　key　to　everything　is　there；　I’m　sure；　but　always　the　whole　story　remains　just　tantalizingly　out　of　reach。　Our　voices　are　thin　but　recognizable。　In　the　background　is　the　rumble　of　the　jet’s　engines。

　　ME：　Is　it　true　you　had　a　serious　row　with　him？　Just　before　he　died？

　　LANG：　Mike　made　certain　wild　accusations。　I　could　hardly　ignore　them。

　　ME：　May　I　ask　what　kind　of　accusations？

　　LANG：　I’d　prefer　not　to　repeat　them。

　　ME：　Were　they　to　do　with　the　CIA？

　　LANG：　But　surely　you　already　know；　if　you’ve　been　to　see　Paul　Emmett？　＇A　pause；　lasting　seventy…five　seconds＇

　　LANG：　I　want　you　to　understand　that　everything　I　did；　both　as　party　leader　and　as　prime　minister—everything—I　did　out　of　conviction；　because　I　believed　it　was　right。

　　ME：　＇Inaudible＇

　　LANG：　Emmett　claims　you　showed　him　some　photographs。　Is　that　true？　May　I　see？

　　And　then　there　is　nothing　for　a　while　but　engine　sound；　as　he　studies　them；　and　I　spool　forward　to　the　part　where　he　lingers　over　the　girls　at　the　picnic　on　the　riverbank。　He　sounds　inexpressibly　sad。

　　“I　remember　her。　And　her。　She　wrote　to　me　once；　when　I　was　prime　minister。　Ruth　was　not　pleased。　Oh；

　　God；　Ruth—”

　　“Oh；　God；　Ruth—”

　　“Oh；　God；　Ruth—”

　　I　play　it　over　and　over　again。　It’s　obvious　from　his　voice；　now　that　I’ve　listened　to　it　often　enough；　that　at　that　moment；　when　he　remembers　his　wife；　his　concern　is　entirely　for　her。　I　guess　she　must　have　called　him　late　that　afternoon　in　a　panic　to　report　I’d　been　to　see　Emmett　and　shown　him　some　photographs。　She　would　have　needed　to　talk　to　him　face…to…face　as　soon　as　possible—the　whole　story　was　threatening　to　unravel—hence　the　scramble　to　find　a　plane。　God　knows　if　she　was　aware　of　what　might　be　waiting　for　her　husband　on　the　tarmac。　Surely　not；　is　my　opinion；　although　the　questions　about　the　lapses　in　security　that　allowed　it　to　happen　have　never　been　fully　answered。　But　it’s　Lang’s　failure　to　complete　the　sentence　that　I　find　moving。What　have　you　done？　is　surely　what　he　means　to　add。“Oh；　God；　Ruth—what　have　you　done？”　This；　I　think；　is　the　instant　when　the　days　of　suspicion　abruptly　crystallize　in　his　mind；　when　he　realizes　that　McAra’s　“wild　accusations”　must　have　been　true　after　all；　and　his　wife　of　thirty　years　is　not　the　woman　he　thought　she　was。

　　No　wonder　I　was　the　one　she　suggested　should　complete　the　book。　She　had　plenty　to　hide；　and　she　must　have　been　confident　that　the　author　of　Christy　Costello’s　hazy　memoir　would　be　just　about　the　least　likely　person　on　the　planet　to　discover　it。

　　I　would　like　to　write　more；　but；　looking　at　the　clock；　I　fear　that　this　will　have　to　do；　at　least　for　the　present。　As　you　can　appreciate；　I　don’t　care　to　linger　in　one　place　too　long。　Already　I　sense　that　strangers　are　starting　to　take　too　close　an　interest　in　me。　My　plan　is　to　parcel　up　a　copy　of　this　manuscript　and　give　it　to　Kate。　I　shall　put　it　through　her　door　in　about　an　hour’s　time；　before　anyone　is　awake；　with　a　letter　asking　her　not　to　open　it　but　to　look　after　it。　Only　if　she　doesn’t　hear　from　me　within　a　month；　or　if　she　discovers　that　something　has　happened　to　me；　is　she　to　read　it　and　decide　how　best　to　get　it　published。　She　will　think　I’m　being　melodramatic；　which　I　am。　But　I　trust　her。　She　will　do　it。　If　anyone　is　stubborn　enough　and　bloody…minded　enough　to　get　this　thing　into　print；　it　is　Kate。

　　I　wonder　where　I’ll　go　next？　I　can’t　decide。　I　certainly　know　what　I’d　like　to　do。　It　may　surprise　you。　I’d　like　to　go　back　to　Martha’s　Vineyard。　It’s　summer　there　now；　and　I　have　a　peculiar　desire　to　see　those　wretched　scrub　oaks　actually　in　leaf　and　to　watch　the　yachts　go　skimming　out　full…sailed　from　Edgartown　across　Nantucket　Sound。　I’d　like　to　return　to　that　beach　at　Lambert’s　Cove　and　feel　the　hot　sand　beneath　my　bare　feet；　and　watch　the　families　playing　in　the　surf；　and　stretch　my　limbs　in　the　warmth　of　the　clear　New　England　sun。

　　This　puts　me　in　something　of　a　dilemma；　as　you　may　appreciate；　now　that　we　reach　the　final　paragraph。　Am　I　supposed　to　be　pleased　that　you　are　reading　this；　or　not？　Pleased；　of　course；　to　speak　at　last　in　my　own　voice。　Disappointed；　obviously；　that　it　probably　means　I’m　dead。　But　then；　as　my　mother　used　to　say；　I’m　afraid　in　this　life　you　just　can’t　have　everything。

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